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i write these things in segments.. often times when i start to write, i'll
feel myself drift away, and before long i'll find myself having to guess
what my original point was. that's when i tell myself it's gone too far.
i've heard this used in other places, too.. 'sleep on it', 'take a break, and you'll see it in a whole new angle'. i agree with those, but i believe i can offer a reason why. when i'm sitting there, thinking to myself something, i'll have the true feel of the thing in my mind. as i start to write, my thought-to-transcription skills aren't 100%, so i have feedback and all that ill shit. not only that, but some things come out dead wrong. also, the part of my mind that did the philosophizing is now shut off; it's now having to take care of making my fingers do their thing to get these words out on the computer screen. what that leaves me is with a memory of the original feel, so basically it comes down to how fast i can write it (also how long lasting my memory feels like being that day), and how well i can draw up the memory before it's all gone and all i'm left with is my fingers sitting here, wondering what it was i was thinking about. i think about different things at different times, usually the best and purest stuff comes out when i'm relaxed from not doing anything for a little while, which is obviously not the case when i'm writing. so i have to hurry. now that i have that out of the way, lemme get on with this. let's say i'm just about tired of writing one particular segment. i'll know because my mind will start to wander off and do other things. so, a good thing to do is take a break, or go and try another, since the concept i've started for myself in another area will be freshly reaquainted with my mind and i can start freely from there, without any anxiety over what my fingers can type out or what i will forget - the concepts themselves are reinitiated and are as spontaneous as they were when i first thought of them, if i preserved the feel in my words the last time i concluded it. don't worry about the memory not being there next time you come back to it - you've got shit down there that remembers things, and most importantly, the better you did the first time, the more cues you'll have to put you right back in that situation, to remember that original feeling. giving yourself time to relax opens the big picture up again, as if you were doing fine editing work on a subject and needed to regain the imprint of the original goal in your mind again, so you take a look at the original set of plans. (example: i was just working on animating that little mickey mouse graphic that'll probably be up somewhere on the site by the time you read this. i was working in 8 to 1 expansion in order to get every background pixel to be transparent, careful not to blotch out any of the foreground character itself. unfortunately, when you work with that big of pixelization, you see more and less at the same time. although i could edit the pixels out easier, i lost part of the overall form since i could only look at a little bit of it at a time. going back and viewing the original in normal size made it easier to tell the overall shape and features of it.) it's sort of like the way i draw. let's say i'm drawing a circle.. i'll start by freehanding the round shape, but of course it won't be perfectly round. next i'll use that 'hairy line' to sort of shade in the area most desirable to make a complete circle; now i'm left with my original design surrounded by a bunch of hairy reshapings. lastly, i'll darken the countours that are correct, and erase the ones that aren't, working my way finer and finer down until the point where there is no more hairy line (approximation), only a line as fine as the first one i drew, yet perfectly symmetrical. shit. can you understand that? i think i did ok. i can't really remember right now.. |